Turning Thirty and All That Blah!

Yeah!
As you know by now, this one is all about turning Thirty! Is it a big deal? Both yes and no.

I could not care less about my age shooting up. I feel more matured. More beautiful. Like am in better control of this world and its people.

But yes, am doing a double-check of my lists:
1) The Dear & Near List
2) The Mess List
3) The Learnt Lessons List
4) The I've Done It List
5) The Wanna Do List

Not that anything in the first four lists would do anything to me, but make me feel peaceful and happy or shudder in the realization of I've got past it! The last list though, will rule every moment, every unseen force that will affect my actions and thoughts. And that is where my life will be!

Will get back to this in a while.
Muah! Rashmi.

The Missing Factor

Hiya!

Yup...bak again after ages :) And feeling quite fresh too...it's been a while and I've been feeling drained out :(, but yeah - guess am back to feeling better again.

Just went to Kerala and got back this morning. Sometimes you do not feel the feeling of 'yours' to certain elements of life, no matter how much you belong to it. Being in Kerala has never given me that sense of belongingness as it gives me today. Maybe it's the people, maybe it's the place, maybe it's the girl whom I love like crazy - am unsure, but I feel nice feeling this way.

Away from my family... today, I feel lonely. Amma's and Achan's thoughts seem to flood me with nostalgia and the missing factor...but yet, once again I feel nice feeling this way. I rarely miss Kuwait...my land of childhood. I rarely miss my folks because they are there, coz I always told myself they are with me. So, today as I feel this...this feeling of physical absence...I feel good.

Love u Amma and Acha...missing u like crazy now!

And bye guys...

Cheers :)

A religion I cud never accept :(

Hmmm...err :) (sheepish smile...)

Am just so damn good at this...at never getting bak to my blog regularly...sheesh! But then, what do I do? I come to it when I find time...when I know I can sit down n type out what I feel like.

Now, sitting in front of something - I never thot I wud...I decided tat I hav t time to type tis out. Yeah! Cricket....IPL...gosh! am amazed at myself...me n cricket! Nnnnooooo......Tis is one religion I never got myself to read about, listen about n watch nything related to it on television...T mere conversation forever bored me...

But yeah, now am just watching it...Mumbai Indians, Kokata Knight Riders, Deccan Chargers...wat not? I seem to be getting a hang of wat's happening...am so glad! :) It was always one of those things tat never managed to get my attention or interest. But now...it seems slightly different! Tat's how life is...a li'l crazy...a li'l funny...n quite unpredictable!

Hmm, wat more? Tat's about it for now...lemme get bak to it n maybe get bak to my sweet blog...hoping to.

Bye for now!

Cheers :)

Re-solutions???

Hiya!

A very belated Happy New Yr to all the forces associated with this blog of mine...people who read, those who help me host this...n ever single soul!
:)

So, yeah...the new year has kick-started...n I ask myself "Do you have any new yr resolutions?" hmmm....me thinking...
But I must say...I did take some resolutions last yr, my friends n me sat up listing th tops 5-6 things u'd wanna do before the year ends. N am happy to realise that, I did about 75% of them...

N now, this time..I haven't...
Shud I? does it make a difference? I dunno...hav no clue...

Shall think n get bak on it...
So, until then bye :)

Gud mng...

Gud mng!
:)
A bright morning...the air is chilled...n am feelin cold! :(
N am in ofc...

I seem to be thinking of Kuwait since the time I woke up this mng...guess, it's t cold climate...How I used to hate winters n love summers...
I always told myself the sun's beautiful...n it's so lively with bright sun-rays all around. But the winter...it simply pushes me bak to my quilt - no matter wat! I hate having to fight with myself every morning...to wake up or not to wake up...to go or not to...to throw the alarm or not to...
Aah...wat a conflict right in the beginning of the day!

Nyways...am here @ office today after all that conflict :)

Chao...c ya...
:)

Nuthin much...

Din't key in anything yesterday...eh?
I know...kinda got lazy, I guess...

N today too...am almost done for t day...
Wat do I talk about? I dunno....
Nyways! thr isn't a rule in t constitution that says...I must type in something every 48 hours or so...right? So...I can be fine n just get going for t day, na?

Hhmm...so me off...
Din't have a great day...lemme smhow get myself to smile for t rest of t day...

Bye for now!
:)

Bebasi Jurm Hai...Hausla Jurm Hai...

Gud mng :)

Yeah, yet another day!
Hhmmm...so tat line in t title..."Bebasi Jurm Hai...Hausla Jurm Hai..."
It's a close friend's status line in GTalk. N it set me thinking...

If both weakness and determination is a crime...then, what isn't?
What about strength? Is strength a crime? Not in my world atleast...but I've heard n read quite a bit - words that try hard to prove, minds that struggle to prove that strength is a crime.

Heard of honour killing?
In a way, it's better not heard - but if you've kinda overheard it, you wouldn't be able to chuck it and walk past...like now, you've just read this out here!
So - what do you think is honour killing? Yeah! Right...Killing in the name of honour...restoration of honour thru crime! Amazing isn't it?
Na..na...thr isn't much to worry about...
Coz it's just about taking life to restore a "FAMILY's" honour...it's just about father or brother strangling the daughter/sister to death...or better still burning her alive, coz she loved someone...coz they suspected she loved someone...coz she did somethin that brought shame unto them...

Am happy in my world...in my world honour isn't about takin life...it's about giving it away...
Life doesn't begin n end with honour...but it sustains through humanity.

Will write more about this soon...need to get bak to work for now...

N yeah...just got t remians of those lines...here it goes:

"Ae sanam tere baare mein kuch sooch kar,
Apne baare mein kuch soochna jurm hai;
Bebasi jurm hai...hausla jurm hai..."

:)